Top five things I’m afraid to tell you

1) I still freak out a little

Even though I have been shooting weddings for years, I still get those butterflies every wedding I shoot because I know what a big deal it is for coupes to allow me into this incredible once in a lifetime day.  I know that the adrenaline rush is a good thing because it keeps me focused and on track.  I also feel like it actually makes me work harder!  So much so that sometimes during the day I forget to eat and don’t realize it until I sit down to dinner and realize how ravishingly hungry I am!

2) I would love to hold your newborn.

When I do a newborn session I really love holding your baby.  Please don’t freak out at all, and it will never be something I ask of you (unless maybe I do..) but I really do love babies. Plus it gives me that baby fix I need to keep me from wanting another.  Having almost three tweens in my home, I don’t get as much time to hold babies.  So just let me.  I promise I will love it!

3) There are days I doubt myself.

Often times, especially during the slow season when I am able to look around me, I am ready to throw in the towel.  I often find myself comparing. When I look around to all the amazing and incredible photographers in the Twin Cities area, there are days I feel like I can’t measure up.  I know this is not true and I’m not asking for accolades, but I want you to know that if you struggle with comparison, you are not alone at all. On days like this, I have a friend that I confide in and I have found that it’s best for me to shut off all social platforms.

4) I remember names and people.

Seriously, this can be a little freaky to some people. Even if we have met for a short time, I will probably remember you. Maybe not your name, but your face for sure! I blame it all on social media and the hours of editing after a wedding looking at faces!

In this crazy world where we can see other peoples lives on social platforms, I know I remember people and what is going on in their lives even if they don’t know me!  Recently at a networking event, I started talking to someone that I thought I had met before!  We had only talked through social platforms and half way through the conversation (she was so gracious!) she asked me politely who I was and how I knew her. (You can imagine my embarrassment!) So if I come up to you and start talking like we are BFF’s, and you have no idea who I am, you have complete permission to interrupt me and tell me we have never met in real life!

5) I honestly, truly do love my job.

I’m not really scared to tell you this, but I feel like I should! Almost without a doubt there is someone on a wedding day that will come up to me and ask me if I really love my job.  I’m not really sure what they are expecting me to say, but let me answer this question so you don’t have to ask it.  I really, really do.